in love wiith her

mi moreniitaaa
mii piiel canelaaaa
yo soy su vanilla bar y ella es mi chocolate bar :]

do i look sikk :[  ????





the good and the eviil


i am anger

i am haterade

i am vengence

i am EVIL.


what you made me.

i am empty

i am numb

i am rotten

i am dark


what you made me.




and i will HURT those like you.

because i am NUMB

and i feel nothing just like you.


what you made me.

but I am beautiful.

and i am pure.

I am forgiveness



I am Life.

I am faith.

I am powerful.

I am LOVE.






and you will not break me.

you will not bring me down.


because YOU made me this way.

june 06, 2008 ii was stronger than ever!

iits weiird how wiith so much madness n nonsense goiin on iin thiis world my liife iis --actually makiin sense!-- how ii finally feel liike for dee fiirst tiime ii've found my place n kn0w why ii was put here to begiin wiith...........{you wiin iin liife n den u loose} some thiink iif you loose your a faiilure.. ii on the other hand thiink otherwiise...iif u never loose u'll never experiience dee joy dat faiilure can sometiimes briing!faiilure makes u change.. n change iis always good as long as u always keep ur morals!

you must always remember that the things you deserve will NEVER be handed to you..you want success?? den you have to fight for it! dont expect everything to fall into your hands life doesnt work that way! yes, theres those that get handed everything on a silver platter..associate with them n you will soon see with your own eyes how ungrateful..selfiish.. n stupiid th0se ppl r! fiight for wat u want n u'll learn that the smallest things in life are what matter most! a smiile.. a helpiin hand.. a warm hug.. a walk iin dee beach with your loved ones. a sincere ii love you.. thats wat really matters... money... lust.. luxury.. put that as a priority n eventually u'll end up ALONE! sure we all need money... n gettn money isnt bad as long as u remember who u r n where u came from.. fight for what you want and u'll learn dee meaning of real success.. u'll appreciate n be grateful for everything that you do and say.

negatiiviity?? you will always have dat around you! liife just comes wiith that. but wiith tiime you will eventually learn how to iignore iit n go around iit.. oh n SHiiTY PEOPLE? yes get ready for them too.. you will meet alot of those iin your liife.. n why do we meet shiity as people?? so that we can see the person we DONT want to become..

there wiiLL be lifes of people who you will touch n do everything for. n iin dee end u'll find out dey never deserved you! and dats fiine just leave dem behind n move on! if you stick around u'll just end up gettin hurt! not only that but iit iisnt faiir for neiither of you..

be HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! no matter what liife throws at you.. the happiiest are those who have gone through more shit than most ppl will iin a liifetiime.. ii am one of those people.. name somethiing chances are iive already got my own story bout iit!

some may see mee n say what a diissap0iinment ii am well iim fiine wiith you thiinkiing that! ii dont need anyones approval on how ii chose to live my crazy but beautiiful liife... but lemme ask you iif ii diied tomorrow would u still hate mee for not kissin up to you??? for not living up to your expectaii0ns?? or would u be at my funeral shedding ur hipocrit n false tears!?????reflekt 0n dat!!!

ii am N0T a pure person i dont judge anyone bekause ii have done alot of shit iin my liife as well... iive admitted my mistakes n moved on.. i dont deny ii used to driink everyday.. ii used to smoke weed.. ii used to do both at dee same tiime n bee on cl0ud niine.. ii used to thiink beiing 0n -E- was fkn k00l! ii cheated on those who diidnt deserve iit.. ii liied to get my way.. ii hurt those who loved mee.. ii ended up dissapoiintiin even my own self! yeah.. ii diidnt giive a fukk.. ii diid all dat n more.. n iit got mee no where!!! n now ii am a complete stranger! iim a new mee.. ud be amazed how much ii changed.. ii diidnt change for you... for my friends.. for my famiily.. ii changed for meeeee.... n ii am sooo proud of meeeee....

ii wr0te thiis n0vember 10, 2008

ii wrote thiis almost a year back..
and ii ask myself where iis that angie
cuz that iis who ii need bakkk
she was str0ng.. powerful..ii need her bakk!

As hard as you try to let goooo of the past and what made who you are now is the hardest thing to accomplish.. one day i plan on doing so. But right now My heart wont let me. I will move on dats for sure.. but let g0 n forget why ii am who ii am n why ii have dee attitude ii have ? iimposible! Because all of those things that happened to me then are what keeps me going str0nger n motivated! Ii will hold on to dat feeling until ii accomplish everything dat ii have set for mee. N when ii reach where ii want to be.. I will leave my past behind n never ever ever look back!

My current status: Im single. (im fine with it)

Ive finally gotten to know myself on a deeper LeveL theres things ii knew bout myself already dat iim embracing even more… n deres things bout myself that ii never knew ii was capable of having! Here ii am loving meee.. loving everything about myself! N each day ii love myself more n more n never less!

My friends?: dey're good. Actually dew few ii have r great!

Im learning dee true meaning of friiendshiip n iim silently n slowly letting go of those who manage to bring negatiiviity to my life n to those who never appreciate anything of what ii d0 or have done! N dats fine some of us appreciate 0thers take shiit f0r granted… I wont hate them f0r that we are all different… but ii will n0t waste ma time on dem ii will simply leave without an explanation n without a goodbye n wen dey stop n think "what happened to angiie" well let me tell you wat happened to angiie –angiie went bu-bye angiie iis now with her true friends dee ones who day n night support her n make her smiile angiie iis now no where near u n angiie will never ever come bakk.. angiie iis liiviing her life… a life dat u were once part of.. but now uve been forgotten… u wanna judge angiie for being so harsh for leaving without saying anythiing??? Do iit.. ii fukn dare you.. because u made her who she iis now.. so iif u wanna judge her go ahead.. but everythiin ur saying bout her will bounce bakk to you!- enufffffff said

Me: well im just something else.

But iim dat something else u wont fiind anywhere else or iin anyone else.. n dat ii guaranteeee y0u! I need to let go and stop holding grudges but im Human and i make mistakes.i just want to be a 20 yr old instead of a 30 yr old. Ive been watching my back. taking care of my shit at 18. when can i just reeelax? It seems in the end that im wrong at everything. Growing up i fucked up a lot of thiingsss! N n0w all iim tryna do iis fixx my mistakes n make sure ii never ever do wat ii diid! Before ii diid everything dat got me n0 where! N n0w iima do eevrythiing dats gonna get mee far very very far!!

My temper: hmmm ii have to admit ii am a liil angel but ii can have dee worst temper!

Blame mee?? Y0u cant! Once ii was dat liil iinoocent angiie dat diid wat everyone said.. dat smiled n got handled like iif she was a fkn puppet! Dee one dat kept everything iinsiide.. n n0w u ask "what happened to dat sweet LiL angiie we all knew" iim here… iim here.. but ii know who deserves my sweetness n who doesn't.. ii think wat u guys r all tryiin to ask iis "why wont she do what ii say anymore" ha! Caught u didn't ii…. But get used to iit cuz for years now iive been doiin mee being iindependent! N iif ii have a temper… iits all thanks to plenty of you… iim giving u a taste of ur own mediiciine.. tastes like shiit doesn't iit… well shut up n swall0w iitttt…

I wish i had simple problems like with what im going to wear tomorrow or is my boyfriend going to get mad at me if i talk to this person or something or where iis my new paiir of sh0es.. but instead ii have t0 w0rry bout every step ii take.. about whos gonna bakk stab mee tomorrow… ii have to watch wat mistakes ii make kuz iit seems like ppl r just waiitiing t0 see me fall.. but dat aiint gonna happen.. get used to iit!

you tryyy to be me..

u cant handle it

They Make me Thiink...

Live as if your were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. -- Gandhiji

Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever...-- Isak Dinesen

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back; you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while, you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have. If you think that the world means nothing, think again. You might mean the world to someone else. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there True friendship never ends. Friends are forever. Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? NOBODY IS PERFECT UNTIL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM. (Isn't that the truth?) Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of you life. But only friends leave footprints in your heart.

The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.”

“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”

“I thought we were a real love relationship. I did. I was very invested in love, but it was just this long long sex thing that could end at any moment because after all, it's just about getting off. Almost all the time, you tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love.”

If you don't like something, change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

If there were ever a time to dare, to make a difference, to embark on something worth doing, it is now. Not for any grand cause, necessarily, but for something that tugs at your heart, something that's your aspiration, something that's your dream. You owe it to yourself to make your days here count. Have fun. Dig deep. Stretch. Dream big."


happens t0 the best 0f us




conversatiion wiith a friiend
Hiim: "always remember just like you cry for him, just like you feel like you need him, just like he seems to be your everything, ask yourself if hes doing the same for you, because tthere is people in this life angie that will cry and need you theres people in this life that are smart enough to know your worth more than words can ever say."

me: hola, porque me diices eso?

him:porque te quiero mucho nena, y porque la vida sigue

me: i know that...

hiim: doesnt seem like iit

me: well things arent always what they seem

hiim:te conosco angiie ii know this hurts but iits a part of liife we get hurt sometiimes but liife goes on.

me: im ok trust mee

hiim: just remember love doesnt walk away people do

me: yeah, iits kiinda wat ii diid

hiim:iif u werent ready to let go then you shouldnt have

me: ii had no other choiice, sometiimes we have no option and liife forces us to do thiings we wiished we diidnt have to do..

hiim: iif he was dumb enough to let you go dont be dumb and hold on

me: stop please :[ ii dnt and cant hear thiis riight now

hiim: you have to hear thiis angiie enough iis enough babe.

me: ii just dont care anymore

hiim:promise ur self to be strong, look at the sunny side of everythiing and make yor optimism come true.  think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best because you deserve iit.  forget the mistakes of the past, amd press on to the greater achievements of the future.  give so much time to the improvement of yourself, that you have no time left to criticise or think of others. live in the faith that the whole world is on ur side. remember someone who lets you walk away simply doesnt care. love blinds us but iif ur smart enough angiie u'll see the liight! i love you and trust me so many other people love you. and we may not be him u may not love us like u love him but we r still here. that proves my point, goodnight beautiiful and do not give up!

its not easy :[ doesnt anyone understand dat... but hes sooooo riight.. diosito give me strength please


My Siister Meliissa has cLaiimed my looks!

Mely && Angiie
My siissy Melissa has claiimed n saiid she looks just liike mee now hahaha better saiid ii look liike her siince she iis older. only difference iis im white as dove n shes dark as a snicker jk jk ii say give me a few weeks more and we can re compare each other ;) Here are some snap shots 0f dee CHiiPMUNK SiiSTAS!! <3



bruiises. :[

dey c0me n g0
ii just wiish deyd

no one has to know
nor understand you
sometimes some people
just wont mend their heart
they wont understand your reasons why
sometimes you just have to suck it up
and deal with it on your own.

dont be quick to judge a person
because inside you really have no
damn clue what they could be
going through.

khloe baby love l0ves khloe kardashiian

i LOVE everything about her

they say shes my twiin
iiiiii wiiiiiiiisshhhhhhhh

attitude wise ii highly agree
looks ? eghhh a littleeeeee